Friday, December 31, 2010
Doing + Tweeting
For those who have me on their facebook friendlist or following my tweets, you might have seen that i make tweets/shoutouts a whole lot. And, as much as i make shoutouts, i follow people's updates and take them seriously too. However, one thing has been bugging me since awhile back and that's the tenses they are using in their shoutouts/tweets
For those who are going; "tenses?"; well, tenses are... (flips grammar book) verbs that shows an action done within a particular time frame... and shit. really? well, i'm not too sure if that's accurate enough but basically, tenses are those indicators of actions done in certain times. Present tense means i'm doing it now, Past tense means i've done it, Future tense means i will do it in the future. And Continuous tense means i am still doing it. There's other category of tenses but i'm not gonna go thru that. Yep, Dark Delaqroux, English teacher.. and that's my take on grammar...bitch!
AAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaanyways, i've been reading through people's shoutouts and i have realized that those shoutouts are made in different tenses. Some indicate a past action, some're planning for the future and some are.. well.. doing it now. The latter bugs me the most. How can they are doing something and tweeting about it at the same time? Take this one for example;
Now, i dont care about the fact that the guy is dressed Mexican style, free-falling and eating ice cream all at the same. For all i know, he might actually possess the capacity to do that. But tweeting about doing something while guy is doing it? I cant help but to wonder, is that possible? Yeah, i know it's a minor thing but i just cant help wondering if that is humanly possible to the extend where i will actually try doing it myself. Okay, so you may say that the example above might still be a possible case. And in another example;
Now that example right there, while in present continuous tense, is do-able. You can enjoy ice cream while tweeting. I've tried that and while i have slightly sticky phone keypad afterwards, tweeting while eating ice cream and waiting for fireworks is possible (of course, i'm not too sure about free-falling). But let's just say, you argue that it IS possible to tweet while free falling, let's get the ice cream and free falls out of the examples and see this one below;
Okay, now seriously, how is that possible? First, note that the shoutout was not made using facebook mobile (the app where you have facebook in your mobile phone) and one time, i figured, yeah, it's not really impossible to make out with a girl and hold a handphone on one hand and typing at the same time. But they are actually making out while the guy (who is totally not me.. no, seriously) is on his laptop. Well, technically, the girl should be on his lap's top while the pc is on the desk for that being possible. But the guy has to has a real good stealth keyboard to not make any sound if he is typing while making out. that, or ninja fingers. Also, it could have been the fact that the making out session is too loud that the girl couldnt hear him typing. THAT, or they both have a mutual agreement where the girl dont mind the guy making out while posting a shoutout... huh.
So, yeah, i really put up alot of thinking in this. God knows why. Now i studied linguistic and i do know the fact that the use of present continuous tense to describe a past event is acceptable. News headlines do that all the time. But, what bugs me is the fact that when they post those updates or tweets and using present tense, it just makes me wonder whether is it possible to do those things while tweeting? I mean, obviously, the last example guy was not making out while also on his computer. But what if he really is? How did he do that??
Til then, i'll still be wondering and making more blogposts.
Delaqroux Out.
(Tweets and status updates above are not taken from anyone, i snipped my own shoutout and photoshopped them with the pic and text. Also, none of the updates were real but they are based on real tweets and shoutouts i have seen before. If it's similar to any of yours, that's purely coincidental.. Go tweet yourself :p)
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Main Minecraft
Delaqroux In...korperasi meng... uh....menaik tarikh...? (up..date?)... YEAH!!!
There was a time in past Dark's life when he loved playing with stackable blocks. He love building castles and fortresses with them and every time the structure is completed, he foresaw an army trying to take over the castle. Past Dark, while also the castle's designer, roleplays the castle's defender and, using the best of his design, he outsmarted the forecoming army. Of course, Dark won everytime, proving his supremacy over and over again to the dumbass army. Good times, we both, Present Dark and Past Dark, agree. But gone are those fun, innocent times. Til this one guy created MINECRAFT!!
No, not yourscraft.. minecraft.. (Sorry, just had to do that joke)
Minecraft is exactly a reminiscent of those simple playtimes. You play as a blockish guy in a world full of blocks and you, similar to playing with stackable blocks, tear down the blocks that shapes the world (which is called Mining) and restructure them (put them side by side or stack em up high) to form castles or houses or whatever you can think of. Also, to make your mining and building job easier, you need to craft better equipments and sometimes, better blocks to assist you (which is called Crafting). There's no storyline to Minecraft but rather you create your own. The game consist of nightime and daytime in which the world's creature (yeah, there's random spawning creatures) spawns from cows, sheeps, pigs and chickens during the day (You can kill them for food and more crafting materials) and not-so-pleasant baddies during the night. Now, the baddies, like the army i used to imagine, wants you dead. so the only way for you to survive the night is to build a smart, baddies-proof structure. Fun eh? No? Well, fuck you.
Anyways, while actually more of a survival game, Minecraft is a pretty relaxing experience once you're familiar with the day-night cycle (Mine and build during the day, hide and craft in your fortress by night). You dont need to kill those baddies for any reason. there's no scoring system or whatever. But as long as you're safely in your castle at night and can watch those baddies burst into flames as the next day's sun appears, it's just a satisfying feeling. Soon after, you find yourself enlargening your hiding place (from cave to a house, to hideout, to castle, to fortresses.. whatever you can think off) all at a relaxing pace. There's nothing telling you what you should design, there's no missions, no scoring and you can play with a mate in a total mine and build game. I played all by myself and i find myself building some underground sanctuary with tunnels and bunkers.
Will it appeal to you? Maybe yes, maybe not. The premise of mine and build without a storyline or a mission may sound dull to some. But hey, Minecraft has sold millions of copies and some game website has already regarded Minecraft to be one of the most innovative games in 2010. So why not take it for a spin. Til then, i'll see you again when my KLCC block tower is finished.
That's not my design up there but it's one example on what you can build with Minecraft. Wait til my KLCC is done... it will be way more awesome.
Delaqroux Out.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Ridiculously obscene songs that are fun
Now i was feeling down for a couple of days now. And then i came across a friend's shoutout regarding how ridiculous some songs these days can be. It turned out that the song she was actually referring to was "I just had sex" by Lonely Island. Now, the shitty thing is that i heard that song a couple of weeks before and i was dying to get it out of my head (hey, the song is catchy) but considering how i need a cheer up; i put that song on my laptop again. Now, i've got the video below but if you're under 18, dont click on it.
Yeah it cheered me up alright :D LOL'd at "When i had the sex, my penis felt great"...
Yeah, the song is friggin ridiculously obscene for the most part but you know what? It's a good change from all those chart toppers out there at the moment which lyrics may sound like the sweetest ballad ever but in truth, we're just talking about the guy probably jacking off to the girl or wanting to bang the girl badly. If you dont believe me, try listening to "In My Head" by Jason Derulo but replace "Head" with "Bed" and it all will make sense. Oh, and "I wanna Love you" by Akon... Yeah, he just wanna love the girl. Really.
Anyways, the lyrics for "I just had Sex" is pretty much honest and that's what awesome about it. I guess that's what memorable about it. If you rather have songs where the singers are being honest, try checking out "Flight of the Conchords", Katy Perry's "Peacock" (Yeah, one time she was singing about Fireworks and the next song in the album is her singing about wanting to see "what you're hiding underneath"). Oh, and I kinda like how innocently honest (and not to mention, romantic) Bruno Mars sounds in "Just the way you are" but i dont agree with the video using a really hot girl to whom he's referring to. If the song is saying how he likes her the way she are (Timbaland referrence here. I know my English), why not just use a normal lady, right? Damn, i should start making videoclips for singers now. Okay, i'm getting off topic.
Anyways, last note. Here's the Peacock song if you havent heard it before. Enjoy. And kids, she really wants to go to a zoo and see a peacock but probably the zoo-keeper is hiding them somewhere underneath a... blanket or something. Oh and a side note; i heard the song being played while i was at a JayJay's outlet in Park St. I wonder if i'd ever hear that song again in Malaysia's retail shops?
Yeah... She really wants to see it.
Delaqroux Out.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Moving out.. shit-ness
I know this may sound really really sad but i dont have anyone to talk with at the moment so i turned to something all emo bloggers would turn to at the moment of emo-ness; their blogs. Yeah, this is about the designation of my hostel in my college and it sucks big time.
For one, there was a time when i realized that we're not allowed to choose our own housemates. That was still a lil okay as i thought, as long as they have us under one roof (it's an apartment so "under one roof" consist of quite aplenty of houses and rooms) it shouldnt really matter if we're just a stone throw away from one another. Then i found out that my name wasnt on the list of residence. It sucked a tad coz i was really nervous to found out where i will be staying at when most of my mates already have. But again, as long as we're all under one roof, it shouldnt really matter. Then finally, the list was updated and i was not even under the same roof. Shit-ness.
In fact, i'm designated in a room three blocks away with complete strangers as housemates and roomies. Now, i dont mind having strangers as roomies (had strangers for my housemates for almost a year in Sydney last time) but my conscience is telling me that i should not be living there. So, being as polite as i can, i requested a transfer to a more familiar sanctuary. Request denied. I'm stuck there. Now that sucked but what sucked harder is the fact that my gut cant stop telling me that, like George Lucas's movie scripts, "there's a bad feeling about this". I rather trust my gut after several experiences and yeah, what else is there left to do but to stay outside?
So yeah, that's the dilemma. If i'll be staying outside, will there still be more rooms for rent? 2011's just around the corner and rooms for rent are running out fast. Plus, all the ads about rooms for rent are only for Muslim girls, Muslim girls and Muslim girls (and they say guys are sexist.. pfft). Shit-ness. And all i want to do in my last year in IPBA is to study in an awesome environment where i'll feel (almost) at home, is that too much to ask?
Delaqroux Out.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Then what? (Review on Malaysian ads)
So i was watching the tv when i realized the few patterns of ads in televisions. Among the common ones is the lame-guy-saw-hot-girl, guy-uses-X-product, guy-becomes-cool, and finally, guy-gets-hot-girl (of course, you can switch the gender the other way round too). The concept is a tad primitive in my opinion, but hey, it works to a great extend. If you think "nah, it wont work", let's just say, i bought Lynx deodorant. So, yeah, Lynx is an Australian (at least, i think it's Australian.. it might be an international product) men's perfume and deodorant brand or something and the product pride itself in the "men who uses Lynx gets girl" marketing concept it is using. But after watching both Malaysian ads and Australian ads, it got me thinking; what's next in the Malaysian ads?
I mean, the guy in the Australian Lynx ad started out unattractive and due to his fortunate application of Lynx beforehand, he can transform from lame to romantic, romantic to cool and at the end of the ad where he is invited for a cup of coffee (Yes, kids, it must have been coffee.. what else could a man and a woman do together in an apartment :p), the ad clearly indicate that the man... well... will get his coffee (the machine appeared and shaved his... well... downstairs). So yeah, the headline; men uses Lynx get laid (coffee).
Then, i came across an ad in Malaysia with an almost similar concept. The guy was driving, guy saw hot toll gate girl, he turns on his car deodorant, girl get impressed. Afterwards, the closing scene of the ad had the girl now in the guys car... Wait... THEN WHAT? I mean, the guy in the Lynx ad in Aussie had him getting coffee - a concept pretty much a taboo in Malaysia (Yes, kids, you dont give coffee to strangers in Malaysia), so what's next for the car deodorant guy who has got the hot toll gate girl in his car? Will they really get coffee and get to know each other? Then exhange phone numbers? Then meet each other's parents? Get married shortly after? And then finally the guy can now legally gets his coffee?
So, yeah, the main question that always got me thinking in such ads in Malaysia is "so the guy got the girl using an X product... then what?". If the product gets the girl to get in the guy's car. What other product do i need to make sure i... well... get the girl? I know, it's a sick thought but nah, it's just those random things i think of.
Let me know what you guys think.
Delaqroux Out.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Freaky two-year time lapse
As i'm officially now in Malaysia once again, i cant help but to realize that a whole lot of things have changed drastically. I mean, of course i am not expecting that everything would stay the same for the last two years but the fact that you were gone for two years, which, in truth, doesnt really feel like that long of a time, and things changed, it's like you're in this freaky two year time lapse. Something like you're in coma - it dont feel that long but when you wake up, everything has changed.
In my family, my little sis has grown freakishly tall. Okay, not freakishly. But imagine in 2009 when i left, she was just about my waist height or something and now, she can headbutt me in the neck if she wants to (or if i piss her off enough). She kinda look like Alex from Modern family with her height, long black hair, and glasses. She's a top scorer too so yeah, my sis is an Alex. Aside that, dad's fat. Like, chubby. There was a time when i myself was slightly fatter than i am right now. I had a picture of myself back then and looking at my dad, it reminded of that picture (who's the fatso now! lolol). Oh, and also, my dad picked me up from the airport in a 4WD instead of old rusty van. How fucking awesome is that! I love 4WDs and my family has owned one! Now to find some cyclist and run them over...
No change on mom and big sis though.
In regards of Selayang, there are some parts of the city (or town.. or slum... whatever you call it) that has not changed at all. But for some others, there's tall building sprouting out from everywhere. I had the view of my friend's place from the house's front balcony. The last time i saw it, they're demolishing it for something. Now, it's a three storey building. Three storey building replacing an old house in a matter of two years! Seriously! Oh, and Selayang Mall has reigned supreme in her battle against Selayang Capitol. A whole lot of things have changed in the inside and apparently, it worked. One of the biggest change of all is the fact that Shakey's Pizza is gone (sad face). Yeah, my old workplace with a friendly italian design to the interior has been replaced by some KFC wannabe that, when i visited, had zero customers in it. Wonder why Shakey ever left when their business were kicking ass.
Also, there was Malaysian television. Now, i dunno if i can call it changes or it's just that Australian television is way more awesome but somehow, ads from Malaysian tv all seemed to revolve around the 80s now. Lame acting, unneccessary graphics, excessive effort to make mundane things look awesome, lame catchline (like, "penat dengan something something, gunalah something something" in almost 75% of those ads). And the shows being aired; it seems like everything seemed to revolve around life dramas and pathetic jokes with a "kwang kwang kwang" sound effect everytime something supposedly funny happened. Oz tv is mostly about catchy OZ lifestyle ads and adrenaline based shows. So, i guess i wont be following much tv here.
So yeah, it's just weird how things have changed so drastically in two years. I have stayed in Selayang for almost 11 years and by that time, nothing really changed. When I'm gone for just a short while, everyone seemed to have the idea of changing and building more stuffs. Again, freaky two-year time lapse.
Delaqroux Out.
Monday, November 29, 2010
ONLINE GARAGE SALE.. how cool does that sound?
Ground rules set; i'm moving back to Malaysia and i'm selling my stuff. Price are negotiable (though stingy customers might be assassinated), and photos will come soon. Email me on facebook or gmail (Address: adninazmi.msa@gmail.com) if there's anything you want to ask. Here's the stuff i'm selling. Drumroll, please.
1. 21 inch television with antennae - 50 dollars
Perfectly working. High contrast, sharp picture
2. Soul Skater skateboard thingy - 20 dollars (retail price: 80 dollars @ BigW)
It's this skateboard like thingy that's on the TV ad for awhile back. Unlike a skateboard, it's really light and compact - can fit in an average backpack. Cool stuff.
3. Outdoor Tent Set - 20 dollars (retail price: 50 dollar +)
Fit for outdoor camping. Fit for 1-2 people. Not for extreme weather but useful for light camping and securing a spot for events like Sydney's New Year's Eve.
4. Soup pot - 2 dollars
No cover but awesome for soup or stews
5. Malaysian Multi Adapter - 2 dollars - Quantity: 2
6. 3 level Steamer Set + Dumpling bamboo steamer - 10 dollars (retail price: 20 dollars @ Reject)
Complete set. Awesome for steam-cooking. The dumpling steamer's a free gift and it's awesome.
7. HP Deskjet F4185 Printer - 10 dollars
Working perfectly. Driver can be downloaded online (email me if you need help on that). Full colour ink, partially used black ink equipped inside.
8. Computer Speaker w/ adapter - 10 dollars
Clear sound. Lightweight + Portable.
9. Electric kettle - 5 dollars
10. Stationery set (some pens and paper clips) + File stand + pen case - 8 dollars (retail price: 15 dollars @ Big W)
11. Steam Iron - 5 dollars
12. Laundry set (Laundry basket + Pail + toiletries case + Pegs and hangars) - 5 dollars
13. Table Lamp - 5 dollars (retail price: 10 dollars @ Reject)
14. Deep Frying Pan - 5 dollars
15. Dinner Plastic plate x 2, Small plate x 1, Bowl x 1, Mug x 1 - 4 dollars
Check back soon for more stuff. Email me if there's anything or drop me a text. Contact list below. Oh, and important note; item will be available on 10 December only. Hope to hear from you guys soon.
Adnin out.
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Saturday, November 13, 2010
Tiny little memorable things
Apparently the date for my flight back to Malaysia has been (long) confirmed. It's gonna be the 12th of December. (Note to self: Upon this point, i still dont have my passport. Refer to previous post on how i manage to lost it) Of course, back then, i was really melodramatic on the thought of leaving my life in Aussie. Yep, definitely there's a lot of changes in my life since i got here. The most part of it is the freedom to do things that I want without having anyone telling me that i shouldnt. Life would go back to a hell lot of restrictions when i go back (i.e Mr Arse confiscating my wristband one time claiming that teachers cant wear wristbands. Fuck you. Fuck you very, very much, thanks) and entering a life of a teacher doubled that fact. But, having dinner at Vintage today made me think of one thing; going back to Malaysia isnt so bad at all - especially coz i know that there's always those tiny little memorable things back at home that i forgot to look forward to.
Here in Aussie, i still carry the hobby of doing food hunts (food hunts [refer to; "food hunting] (n): refers to the action of hunting good places for good food around a particular designated area). And definitely, food in Sydney (also Melbourne, Adelaide and Melbourne) has been surprisingly great. There's this myth on people saying that there's just no place for food outside Asia. Definitely, they're not even looking at all. Anyways, food hunting's been a good hobby of mine. Considering that saying about nice food in Asia; hey, i am going back to Malaysia. And if they say that Malaysia's a haven for good food, then it's time this Devil break all hell lose eh? (Eww.. Cheezy...) And, considering that i will have my food hunt comrades in Malaysia, going back to Malaysia is gonna be one look-forward-to food hunt destination.
Then, there's all the myth busting. It's a term i created to describe the action of busting myths told by people about something. Kinda like the show MythBuster. There's this one time early upon my arrival in Sydney when i ask if it's possible to walk all the way from MacQ uni to the city. They responded, "psshhtt...". I prove them wrong (kudos to Enid Cheah for making this mythbusting possible). Then, there was a time when people said that watching sunset at harbor bridge is awesome. I prove to them that watching sunrise is also awesome (meaning that i had to stay in the city for the first ray of light to pop up). Point is; myth busting is just pure fun. Too fun that i forgot that it's something i did alot back in Malaysia as well. And come to think about it, there's still a hell lot of myths left unbusted back in Malaysia still. I'll be back to bust every one of em.
Finally, there's the travels. I remember how i used to say that if there;s one thing fun to do in OZ, it will be the travels - especially unplanned ones where i end up walking to point A to B with no maps, no compass, no one telling me not to go there (except for the hikers at Cradle Mt. who told me not to hike that time - i went up to the top anyways ;p). Of course, i will miss the sights in Australia but hey, i realize that for a travel junkie like me, i never did much of travels in Malaysia. It's a good thing that i am going back to Malaysia. It's not that big of a country and considering the biggest restriction to my travels in OZ is the big price tags on flights, travelling around in Malaysia's an advantage.Sarawak and Sabah, here i come. (All that's left to do is surviving Malaysian drivers... and trying not to get roadkilled '__')
So yep, i'm still not saying that i'm really that looking forward to leaving Australia. There are things i love here that i will have to leave, people that i wont see for awhile (if you are reading this, I'm talking about you, Dog :p), and not to mention, some spots that i spend ages lepaking without a care in the world. But then, maybe all those fun had me go a lil pessimistic. Life dont end til you die (...and i'm pretty sure it still doesnt when you die but we'll get to that later) and surely, going back to Malaysia does not mean that my life's ending. My life's not stopping. Hell, it's not even going in pause. Mine will kick ass and it will kick more ass when i want it to :)
So yeah, i'm kinda looking forward to 12th of December. Let's see what's coming up next.
Delaqroux Out
Monday, November 1, 2010
If i'll die this time around
Another step taken
p/s: Creative writing shouldnt be associated with being emotionally disturbed and the desire to be heard. Then again, if emotionally disturbed creative writers were listened to, we wont be writing in the first place.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Meet Joe Black (House Spider)
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Before you start reading this blogpost, i would like to offer some word of warning that, for some, this blogpost might turn you into an instant paranoid, especially if you're living in houses around Australia - even more if you're arachnidphobic (i think that's what you call them). More specifically, i will be talking about Agent Joe Black, a unit of 'men' in blacks who might be closer than you think. For the uninitiated, i'm talking about Black house spiders.
Now, i live in a garage-bedroom. Technically, my room is made from a garage. Hence, it does look... well... tool-shed-ish to some extent. I moved in here since last end-autumn and has been living in here throughout winter. Yes, it was indeed cold and i am too much of a greenie to be using a heater in my room. Yet, life was blissful. At least, until spring returns and the place turns warmer. Since a few weeks back, i have been encountering several spiders in my room. I did notice them around the house, especially by the window sills in the kitchen, but never really in my room. I suppose they just came out of hibernation or something that they seem to wander around the house for a nesting place. I guess the winters chill had them dormant that they were out of sight.
I am quite a spider-lover. I think some spiders are exotic-looking. So, the first time i encountered a Joe Black, i was like "awww... where did you come from?", took out my hand for it to crawl on, and gently, carry them out of the house into some bush for it to go back into the wild. But til recently, i had to kill one. I was in my bed when the spider was literally next to my face, on the pillow. It freaked me out and i killed it almost on impulse. I felt bad for it but eventually, i realized another one on the ceiling a week after. And another one crawling on the floor. Then another next to the door. That was when it struck me. My room is infested with these guys. Yet again, i'm not sure what kind of spider they were and i figured that they might just be common house spiders (like the ones in malaysia - only twice the size). However, watching some documentary on poisonouse spiders in Australia, i figured i might just check what kind of spider are those in my room.
It turned out that these guys are Black House spiders and they're venomous. Holy shit.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Ye Olde' Qroux Photoshop
I was supposed to be doing my assessment and MSA 2010 newsletter design when the caffeine and boredom in my bloodstream started acting up. Without realizing, i had my webcam open and i took several shots of myself. A camwhore would have been amused just by doing this but unfortunately (or fortunately, when you think about it), i am no camwhore. I started putting one of those photos on photoshop and see if i can mess around with it. The result, to my lowest expectation, turned out to be really awesome (at least in my eyes, i think)
Anyways, this was the photo. Please pardon the narcissism.
To those who are familiar with using Photoshop, i thought i might as well share how the mess-around process came about. To those who arent, please skip the following paragraph right ahead.
The process was surprisingly easy. First, i just adjusted the level of the photo to literally shroud the photo in darkness. Then i borrowed Venom's fangy, grinning mouth to replace the invinsible one in the photo. (You might have to tweak Venom's mouth a lil bit so that the mouth appear naturally in tone and in size with the original photo) Afterwards, i just filtered the photo with lens flare render for the glowing eye. However, instead of putting the flare on the same level, i created a new level, put a black splotch on it, and then i had the lens flare on - just so that i can mess around with the size of the light flare (you might notice that i have oblong-ated the shape of the flare). Finally, its all basic photoshop cut and paste work to have the wordings on the photo.
And here's the final piece. For a rusty skill, i like how this turned out.
Anyway, i know this isnt much of a post but, whatever. Just felt like making this a blogpost for the fun of it. I'll be back with more meaningful posts soon. Oh yeah. and Happy Halloween people!
Delaqroux Out.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
My micro-teaching bring all the boys to the yard...
Somehow, i'm finding the joy of uploading no-life posts on my blog once again. Ah, blogging. Thy charm stood the test of time valantly, still addictive thy are like... durians. Yeah, you dont eat durian after awhile and when you do, you crave for more. Speaking of which, durians was featured in Eat Pray Love. But the guy said it stinks like feet. Wanna know what else stinks like feet? Your mom... And also my life for the past few weeks.
Yeah, for some reason, my life's been a lil disappointing. Expected good things did not turn as well as promised and things just go downhill at the time when it's supposed to be your highpoint. There are a total of.... wait, i'm counting.... uh... about eight events that i was looking forward to the whole damn time. In the end, all eight of them turned out lil bummers. I wish i can share them with you guys but unfortunately, there's all those petty things about saving your face (i'm not sure if this is even a proper, linguistically accepted term), saving other people's face and avoiding major ass kicking that all those things must not be discussed about openly.
But, i can share one though. It's my micro-teaching presentation. The feedback wasnt too bad and the whole thing went on (almost) smoothly with some minor hiccups. But it could have been better. Side note; if there's anyone doing micro-teaching presentation in EDUC391 reading this; if you find one guy (or girl - avoiding biasness here) in the classroom who just bugs you like a shitbug, give him/her the time out. It's better to shove that fella into a corner and have the whole thing done smoothly rather than trying to keep everyone included in the classroom and having things all messed up because of one bug. I put this down in my self-reflection. Thought it's a good two cents for now and the future. Might land you some extra marks for your presentation too.
Nevertheless, i figured out two things (that arent really important but it's fun stuff so what the hell..) while planning and conducting my microteaching presentation. One, i am getting old. Yes, Benny, people grow old, grow all preachy and teachy, and then die. There i was a time ago being a totally rebellious kid who skipped classes he didnt like and here i am now, a pre-service teacher planning how to have a class students would like. Weird feeling. Oh, and two, this whole preparing something-in-hope-of-having-your-class-liking-you-and-your-lesson thing is pretty much a real high risk game. You get things done properly and you will have kids loving the lesson and learning stuffs. You mess things up and they'll yawn like hippos. The latter is obviously every teacher's worst nightmare (except for this one teacher i encountered before who pretty much did all the yawning by himself in class). So, yeah, being teacher is a risky job - but hey, that's exactly where the fun is at. (upon writing this, i took some time out to look around, find a perfect spot on the ground, dig myself a gravehole, and sits in it)
Anyways, in regard of all things stinking like feets, why bother posting this whole blogpost and whine when i cant share what i'm whining about? Coz this is my blog and you guys are my readers. Every now and then, guy has to whine.
Delaqroux Out.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
10/10/10 accident photos
For those who are expecting gruesome photos of the tragedy, skip this read. None will be featured here. I'm just giving my two cents in text. Particularly, i will be talking about the photos and those who uploaded them on the net, their website, blog, whatever.
I was not aware of the accident up til several days after the incident date and i would really like to offer my condolences to whoever's related to the victims of the accident. I do feel great regret on knowing about this tragedy this late. However, i feel greater regret in regards of how i learned of this tragedy; the photos of the incident all over the net.
My message here is simple; please, do not upload them on the internet or share them through any method (tagging people, sending links, reuploading those photos etc.) especially ones that contains a clear image of the deceased - or any other photos for that matter. I am not someone to be talking about ethics here but i do know things that are unethical when i see them. When those photos are taken using the public's cam, i doubt there are any good motives intended. The photos might just be taken so they can upload them on their webpage over the internet, possibly so that they can brag that they (the photographers) were there when the whole thing happened. Let me assure you, that taking photos of an accident, if you're not a member of a official media, and simply uploading them on the internet without regards of censorship or ethics is unethical. Note that if the officials (police, medics etc.) are not having their hands full with the accident, they would try their hardest to disperse the crowd. TAKING PHOTOS OF ACCIDENTS FROM A PUBLIC VIEWPOINT IS NOT ETHICAL.
No one can control the spread of information over the internet. So when the photos are uploaded, for whatever reason behind it, the photos will constantly be shared, tagged, linked and relinked. In other words, the photos will literally multiply without control. I know some people would have some excuse for the photo uploads like a godly reminder of life and death, religious purposes etc. but still, you can do that with a good, convincing text. You dont need to spread photos of those who died. Supporting the uploaders will encourage the photos to multiply even more.
So, why is uploading and multiplying the photos unethical - even with a good intention behind it? The answers are obvious. Think of those who are related to the victims. The last thing they would want is having the thought that the net is now a constant reminder of their loss. I know, your intention to make those photos as life-death reminders are positive, but you dont need to put the visual images online for people to see. I know this might not be a good way of convincing people but i had a friend who passed away years ago because of leukemia. I visited his parents and i saw his computer. I used to hang out with him in front of that computer, playing games. To see that computer and be reminded that he is no longer here, it's the worst feeling ever. I cant stand the sight of the computer, or anything that would remind me that he is gone for that matter. Not to say that i dont want to treasure our memories, but it's not a good feeling at all, believe me. Also, i do recall this one case where this one man was begging the public to not have the leaked evidence photo of her raped sister on the internet. I remembered how devastated the man looked. Somehow, i think we can relate these cases with ours. The main point is that reminders arent always a good thing, especially when its in a form of something you can see - especially those who are going through living nightmare trying to accept the loss of those they love.
Anyway, if you are reading this and you might know some sources or people sharing and passing those photos all around, please remind them to think over what they did. I'm not starting a fight on what's ethical or unethical here. I am just trying to empathize those who are involved. Please, be more human
Delaqroux out.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
My phone is stoo-pit
Friday, October 8, 2010
i hate... (part one)
- I hate people who speak in bumper sticker language
- I hate strangers who asked me to take photos of them and didnt say thanks (yeah, i'm talking about you, Asian camwhore group in Glenelg)
- I hate people who smoke in public with kids around
- I hate people who wants to die just because they are stressed out
- I hate the voice inside my head that kept on scolding me because i dont do things i should do
- I hate people who... how do i put this... when i say something like "i hate humans", they go "arent you a human too?" Yeah, i hate you too, human.
- I hate girls who likes to toy around with guys' heart and act all innocent about it
- I hate quitters without a good reason
- I hate religious people who tell other people (from a different religion) that they (the other people) are going to hell
- I hate sad songs about people dying or people leaving
- I hate not being able to be a jetfighter pilot
- I hate people who like to act cute
- I hate mangoes... well, i dont hate them. i like em, but i just cant eat them
- I hate working with leaders who cant control their temper or lose their head constantly
- I hate last minute workers (if anyone going "arent you a last minute worker too?", as aforementioned, i hate you too) and btw, i'm trying my hardest to discard my last minute working attitude
- I hate p**** guys - sorry, have to censor this out, i can sense em watching
- I hate people who only see bad things about people
- I hate mirrors
- I hate people who post shoutouts ONLY to show-off how awesome they are
- I hate the thought of people dying and me being the only one left
- I hate having no future
- I hate excessively-played-on-the-radio songs
- I hate people who echoes what other people say so they feel part of something
- I hate blogger layout. Seriously, it's ugly.
- I hate people who are more awesome than me.
- I hate cockroaches - and figurative roaches
- I hate people who look down on women
- I hate people who said "living in Australia/Sydney is boring"
- I hate pushy religious people
- I hate not having any hot water to bathe at night
- I hate not having stable internet connection
- I hate people who dont finish their food - just because the food is not nice
- I hate facebook
- I hate flamers (people who go all out condemning something because they think something else is better)
- I hate sweet-talkers
- I hate people who associate negative attitude and emotional disturbance with creative writing and literature
- I hate the fact that i cant draw a horse without having it to look like a.... dog with hooves
- I hate people who hate animals
- I hate using lifts
- I hate people who uses lifts meant for disabled people
- I hate people who uses Malay to talk bad about other people who cant speak Malay
- I hate people who look down on Sabahans and Sarawakians
- I hate Sabahans and Sarawakians who hate Eastern Malaysians
- I hate empty promises
- I hate Mondays
- I hate bad drivers - especially that one guy who almost ran me over
- I hate people who talks about fucking when they never slept with anyone ever
- I hate lying politicians, i hate those who fall for them more
- I hate people who wants to get married so they can "skip the hard stuff"
- I hate that guy who give ciggarrettes to his son
- I hate people who wants to claim Malaysia for their own
- I hate the phrase "in a nutshell"
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Australian Eye - from my eyes
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Saving my memories
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
It's my idea
Grand Theft Alchemic Drive & Halomari Threemacy
This post was originally made as a trial post on My IGN blogsite. Just saw some notice about the blog being a mere beta version so i thought i might as well make a copy of my blogpost on my normal blogsite instead. Anyways, this blogpost will entirely be about games (IGN stands for International gaming network after all) so for those who couldnt care less about this topic, i really suggest skipping this one. Then again, it's a free blog.
I’m sure everyone’s familiar with GTA4 but not RAD for the PS2 system. It’s basically a robot driving game where you defeat monsters from outer space (google a review on youtube and you’ll see some gameplay). The best part about RAD is the robot driving thingy obviously and the best thing about GTA4, to me, is the thievery (you stealing cars = fun). But mixing the gameplay elements from both GTA4 and RAD, you’ll get Grand Theft Alchemic Drive!! It’s basically the world of GTA except there’s robots fighting in the streets. And what you can do is the ability to hijack one robot and use it to complete missions (which consists of shooting people on the ground as well as people in robots as well). If it seems that your robots busting up, worry not – get out of the cockpit and hijack another robot. Just be careful you dont recklessly destroy or kill the entire population or you’ll get stars – the intergalactic polices will be after you…. IN THEIR VOLGARA ROBOTS!!!! (of course, you can hijack those too)
Yes, the stupid prophet is back and yes, human is at the brink of extinction that they resorted to training/creating super soldiers called Spartans. But is it enough (with all Spartans being MIA and all) with only John to clean up the entire mess? NO! Spartans should go KATAMARI!! Yeah, why pick up normal human guns, rechargable shields and jump extra high when you can roll into a ball and sweep the entire Covenant fleet with you! People complain about the Propher dying off way too easy in HALO3? No fret with HALOMARI!!! You roll into a ball of Covenant armies and you crash into the prophet bowling-ball-down-the-alley style! Oh, and those missions with Arbie (The Arbiter)? Who says there can only be one ball on the playing field? Jump in? Try ROLL IN!
Friday, August 13, 2010
Asian@MQlibrary.org
Oh, and upon writing this closing, the table hogger in front of me have returned, totalling in one hour of absence from his table. Pfft...
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
The TV Show
The TV Show
Have you ever realized that everything in front of you might be nothing but a TV show? Have you ever realized the fact that you are sitting in front of a TV screen with an endless movie viewing session, your eyes and ears totally glued to what is in front of you, totally being immersed in the plotted storyline and that you lose track of which is real and which is not? Of course, you would remember that realization. Who would ever forget that feeling? But, that will not be the focus here. What I want you to remember is that split-second moment of noting that this ‘life’ you are watching… or rather, living in, if in the case where you are that immersed, is not real and that as soon as you come up to this, you realized that you had the remote control to the television screen all along. As soon as you press the “switch off” button, what would you remember from the show you were watching until awhile ago? How did you like them? What was your favorite scene? And, of course, turning off the show halfway through, what do you think would be the best music to accompany the ending credit roll? I do remember myself in this situation. And as this is my moment to be among all of you, allow me to share how this moment is like for myself; what did I saw on the TV screen? What did I remember? What was everything like? How was everything like?
Sweetness, it means everything. Like chocolate-fudges that have warm chocolate cream oozing out when you cut out a bit of it with a small fork. And when you do that in a really freezing room, you can see the chocolate cream streaming slowly out with a puff of sweet smelling warm steam. The sensation of wanting, feeling that overwhelming taste of sweetness and wanting that sweet, sweet indulgence in your mouth – that feeling is everything. It is everything that you would ever want. Yes, sweetness – it is everything. You were young. That was when you learned that too much of sweetness can cause die-bitties, small little things that grows in you that bites you until you die when you eat too much sweets. I used to think so that way. Sweetness can kill. Sweetness killed grandpa. I remembered grandpa Tok Wan. He was a happy, old man and he loved riding his motor scooter with me, clutched in the front seat in between his large, knees. He loved to tell funny stories which made us laugh during breakfast and dinner time. Those stories made us not realize how little the food on the dinner table for us to share was. They were hardly any – let alone chocolate fudges. But his funny stories made the bad feelings go away. We did not realize how little the food were, we finished it up while we were listening to his stories. By the end of them, we finished the food and we were full. His stories are always short and funny. His stories are always short, funny, and sweet. Like chocolate fudges we never had. Oh, and I remembered how I asked grandpa on how did he ever managed to get so plump. He said that he loved laughing but for most of the time, he had to hold back some so he did not annoy grandma. All those laughter he held made him swell up like a balloon. That story itself was a genius. It made me laugh. The story was a masterpiece. I loved laughing with old, happy, grandpa. I love laughing to all sweet memories of old, happy, sweet grandpa. So when he died, the laughter ended. Of course, I learned that he died out of too much sugar in his blood. And yes, I learned that the sweetness in those days died with him too. And like, chocolate fudges, sweetness is everything. Having it too much kills. Not being able to have it kills you twice.
Being killed twice – how did that felt like?
Perfection. Death and reborn. The restart button. When imperfection is crossed out and everything is remade, once again, perfected. The feeling of re-freedom, the sense of re-knowing, and the thoughts of finally re-accepting that things cannot ever be perfect, but yet so sure that things will not ever be perfect; the feeling of sheer re-perfection. It is like the feeling of raindrops on your skin – not one single stimulation on your receptory senses is the same to the other – such perfection in an imperfect, unsymmetrical rhapsody of touch and delight. You stood in the middle of the rain, soaked, with your eyes closed. You feel the touches. You accept them with open arms. Joy? Happiness? Yes to some. No to the other. Some of them hated the rain. Some of them hated the rain for making them feel imperfect. Every splatter of raindrops made them think that they are like bronze statues in the middle of a rainy, misty, moist garden. Each drop reminded them that they are corroding away, going from good to rust and rusty to gone. And also, the constant reminding that things, dear things, will never last, fast corroding before you can maintain and cherish them – not to mention, reminding them of the total needlessness for any of those dear things to be treasured. The fact that each drop of clean, clear rain splatters to thousands of glittery small molecules of water is, to them, much like a finely crafted glass goblet dropping on a concrete floor. To witness that is horrifying indefinitely - the few heart beats skipped as you catch the last glimpse of that fine crafted masterpiece before it is gone forever, the irrationally large hope placed on the item regardless of knowing so well of its end a second after, and the split-second space where choice should be made on whether to launch themselves forward in hope of saving that piece of a lost cause, or to get some distance and ears firmly clasped with their palms – which in my opinion, the latter is the way wiser choice to be made. Everything is as good as gone. Everything is just as good as being washed away by the rain. In fact, the rain reminds them that they are not perfect and also, nothing else are. But to know how to embrace such quantum of imperfection is to accept those raindrops – and perhaps everything else – can never be perfect. Is that not perfection; to acknowledge things are imperfect? Like how each drop of rain is different than another. Like how each splatters of water is distinctively different to the other. Like how each shattered memories is in its own unique from one to the other. Like pieces of what you remember is different from another way of remembering them.
Like chocolate fudges and sweet memories, there are specifically ways on how to remember things fondly. I once lived in Sydney and I loved the city. The best part of visiting the city is to go to the Opera House. That is how everyone normally remembers of the city. Nevertheless, if I am to think about visiting the city, I will first remember the train ride to the city. I loved the build up to the excitement of being in the city than being in the city itself. It is just like how I think that the best part of music is the solo strumming of the guitar before the rock band plays, or the drum-rolls before the orchestra begins. So, in this case, I remember visiting the city by being on the train tracks to it. I would take the bottom seating in the last car and to follow the train staff announcing all the stops from the first to the destination. And I’ll be poetic about it. I’ll write songs about those stops. I’ll write lyrics about the people in the train. I’ll write about the people outside the train. I’ll write about how the train ride begins and I’ll write how everything ends when the train stops. I wrote songs and lyrics heaps but there is one that I remember rather fondly, like “Taking the Train to Reality”. I wrote about the time when I passed St Leonards and how I thought about how train-tracked life is. Life is so predictable that it hurts and how we always know the joy of loving amiss. I wrote about passing by the station of Epping and telling myself that everything is okay. But I do remember the lady next to me was crying and how the sky outside was shallow and gray. “Let’s both of us be lost”, I remembered telling the lady, that “it’ll be fine if there’s just the world and you and me”. But I also remembered writing about returning back to reality, exactly when the train reaches its stop and we parted ways in Sydney. I remembered the excitement about being in the city, the excitement of going to be in the city, and the excitement of believing that we will never reach the city. I remember it all and I remember it all fondly.
“How well do you remember it all?” he asked. I shrugged. I hate interruptions. I hate being interrupted and I am sure you would hate it too. He interrupted me from telling you my story. How, how rude! I shrugged again. “What other fond memories do you have?” he asked once again, remaining persistent regardless of my exhibition of very minimal interest to him. Now, my friends, I believe he would want to be friends with me just like how you all are? Shall we accept him to the group? Shall we accept this persistent, rude man to our group’s share-a-tale session? I hope you will not mind for this man’s persistency knows not the underlying meaning of one remaining oblivious to his questions. Mayhaps, we should include him in our group of storytelling. Why not? How much harm can he do to our friendship? This man, now, is looking at me through his half-rim glasses, eyes eager as puppies’ to know my story. I took a quick glance at him, from top to toe. He is wearing a white laboratory coat, his nametag hanging out of his left chest-pocket with a picture of his younger self which seems to appear much less stress-looking than how he looks now. He also wears a necktie of a very nonsensical pattern display. Only a child would pick that kind of tie off the shelves. Only a fool would wear it to work. A fool or a birthday dad, that is. I wished him “Happy birthday”. He did surprised but not too surprised. He just smiled and replied with a bitter thanks. No, he is not surprised. Must have been all those years and years back when I wished him everytime. He knows how I got the date correct every year. I do not have any calendar with me in here but I know it had been a year every time just by looking at this man. I know him so well. I know him well enough to know that his grandchild gave him that necktie. I know him well enough to tell that his grandchild passed away. I know him so well to tell how sad this poor old man is. I know it will not be long before he, too, will start watching his own TV shows. So I began telling him my memories. The same ones I have told all of you just out of sympathy, and as a birthday gift.
Soon after, he thanked me and left, leaving me alone once again within these four walls, all by myself. Now we are all alone again. Where was I? When did I stop? I could not so well remember, neither do I care. It is not at all important as thinking about chocolate fudges, sweet memories, rebirth and raindrops, and trainride and reality. I looked at one of the cushioned white wall where my TV screen used to be. I remembered those joyous times when I used to spend hours and hours, days and days, years and years of my own favorite TV show. I have decided to stop now. Too much TV kills. But story-telling does not. After all, they strapped my hands in this straining jacket, not my mouth. So, my dear friends, let me tell you what I remember. Let me tell you of all the different shows I have watched. Let me tell you what I think about all those shows. We have all the time to spare for ourselves. After all, I am in this TV show of yours and you are watching me. So let’s get back to the program, shall we?